![]() I was so happy that I felt I had the old him back. He was fab with her and went back to being the fab dad to our other children that he was pre drugs. He came back and was clean for 6 months just in time for our baby to be born. He got a job and trained hard at the gym, but never attended meetings. He went to live with his mum even further away and being so far away from us made him realise what he was missing. This caused me great upset, as if he wasn’t an addict, that meant these were all choices. To him, heroin or crack users were addicts, not him. I could go on and on! despite most of these occurrences, he still didn’t think he was an addict, he thought it was probably a bit of an issue, but he definitely was not an addict! I could see the horror on his face when it was ever suggested. ![]() He bought cocaine on the way to the cinema when he was with our children and used throughout the film, making regular trips to the bathroom. He stole two cars belonging to relatives and drove intoxicated to pick up drugs. (This man adored me, everyone said the same, he’d ring me roughly 4 times everyday just to talk to me and see how me and the children were, during the whole of our relationship). He started trying to move on, messaging other women on Facebook, telling them we had been separated ages ago and how I was abusive and how he didn’t love me. During his period away, his behaviour become worse, he hated me, he blamed me for everything, he lost his job “that was apparently my fault” as he failed a drug test. He went to stay with a friend who doesn’t use drugs. We had an explosive argument and shamefully I threw a cup at him. Then the night I found out it was cocaine, was the night I was pregnant with our 5th child, he went out to buy dinner and came home intoxicated. I often thought he was having a midlife crisis or experiencing some kind of depression. His behaviour changed massively over this time, paranoia, moodiness and generally being off with us and everyone else, these were the signs, but I failed to see the cause. He would use when me and my children were asleep in bed. He soon became hooked but this was kept a secret from me for 4 years. My husband was practically teetotal before trying cocaine once when he was 30, given to him by a good friend on a day to watch the football. My husband is my best friend, a very loyal, honest and loving man before addiction took hold. ![]() Hi, my husband is a cocaine addict, I’ve been married for 10 years been together for 16 years.
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